How would I deal with this?

As a mother I don't know how I would deal with a very sick child. The picture above shows a baby about 4 months old who was not expected to live one day outside his mother's womb...if he made it one extra day inside the womb. The very thing that almost took his life in utero is now threatening to take it now. I have been following a blog called My Charming Kids and this is the youngest child. You can check out all of the details on her blog. I have been praying for Stellan for 2 days every morning and every evening. I should probably say a little prayer every time I think of it or have just a second. The thought of losing one of my children absolutely breaks my heart and I don't know how in the world I would survive. The faith of this mother is amazing. I know that God is in control and I know that everything works to the Glory of the Father, but accepting that my child would not be here on earth with me would be a HUGE struggle.

I am asking those of you who check this regularly to say a prayer for Stellan and his mom Jennifer. Pray for healing and that his heart slows down. He is in a rhythm that is called SupraVentricular Tachycardia. Which means that his atria are beating about 260-280 times a minute. He has been like this since Saturday or Sunday. I know with my atrial fibrillation it causes pressure and some shortness of breath that is very uncomfortable and I am an adult. This is a 4 month old baby who can't really tell anyone what he is feeling. The medications they are giving him are big medications for such a little boy.

As I see updates on Stellan I will add them here. I hope all is well with everyone and hope you enjoy the couple days worth of rain we are getting.

Talk to you all later.

Update/Catch Up!

Sorry that it has been so long since I have posted anything and I know that I am WAY behind on posting some pictures of everything that is going on here in our house. Here are some updates for ya though. The farm and horses are doing great. We have sprayed our hay fields with weed killer in preparation for fertilizer and growing. Luke says that we should be cutting in like 3 weeks. I really hope it is more like 4 or 5 weeks, but I think that is up to the Master Grower and the rain he sends. Pilgrim and I are still working together on finding our actual rhythm together. Hopefully we find it soon. I would love to be able to ride him whenever I want. I have been riding a lot recently though. Not my horses, but my friend Beverly's horses. She has a young mare named Tinkerbell and since she is a little unpredictable I have been riding one of her other horses out on trails just to be an extra person around. As with all young horses she just needs seat time and I am glad to help. I love to ride. I don't care whose horse it is.

The gym thing is really working great.~~~In case I didn't mention it before...I joined a gym about a month ago~~~I am there 5 days a week taking a class or doing cardio stuff. I am excited about going and am LOVING it!!!

School is going well too. Tonight was my last OB clinical. I really had a great time. I made fun of it for a while, but I really enjoyed myself tonight. My patient was fairly easy to deal with. I hope she took some of the teaching I did to heart and will make some changes in her life for the better of her baby girl. We will see...Maybe...Well it is late and I am tired. I will try to update as soon as possible.